So if you follow my blog, you'll know that I am a single mom of a beautiful 4 1/2 month old baby boy. Although being a single mother is really difficult and at times very draining and frustrating, I wouldn't change it for the world and I have a ton to be thankful for, so I thought I would share all my thanks with you and my most recent "mommy moment" that I experienced today!
First of all, I am thankful that my parents are so helpful and generous when it comes to my son and I. They allowed me to move back home when I was pregnant so I could have time with my baby before I go back to school, to save money, and to ensure that I do finish my university education. Now, my parents are not wealthy people by any means, so for them to move myself and a newborn into their home was a huge deal. I am thankful that they bend over backwards to help me in any way they can. Although we have our differences, I'm not too proud to say that they have made parenting way easier than most single moms have it.
The second thing I'm thankful for is my boyfriend. He is not the biological father of my son, but he sure as hell takes the time to be a dad. It cannot be easy to date a woman who has a 4 month old baby, because it's not as if I pawn my child off on my parents any time we want to do something fun. It's not as if we can go for drinks whenever we want and just have fun with out friends. Any time we go somewhere, my son is pretty much always with us. Now, bringing a 4 month old anywhere can be a chore when you consider all the things you have to pack, all the things you have to bring just in case, and all the stops you have to take if the baby is tired, bum needs changed, etc. My boyfriend doesn't complain . . . Even when my son is crying and grumpy, he tries his hardest to make him happy. I appreciate that. He doesn't complain when the monitor wakes him up all night, he doesn't complain that his feet hang off the edge of my bed and he doesn't complain when I look like crap because I'm sleepy and stressed. We haven't been together long, but he's really impressed me, my parents and even his parents with the maturity he has shown towards taking on a girl with a baby.
The third and most important thing I'm thankful for is my son. He has changed my life in every single way and I am so glad for that. Before my son came along I dedicated all my time and effort to my university education, because I hated everything else in my life. I don't want to come off as sounding depressed and angry, because I did keep up with my social network and what not, but I really just wasn't happy with who I was. I struggled with depression and bad anxiety, I didn't know who I was really, my weight fluctuated in an unreal way, and I just didn't feel like I had a lot to live for. The moment I found out I was pregnant was the moment I knew my life was about to change for the better. Although being a parent can be stressful, tiring and draining, it is the single most rewarding thing in the whole entire world. To see that little boy grow, learn and develop a personality makes me wake up with a smile on my face every single day.
Mommy moment: Today my dad agreed to babysit for a few hours this afternoon so my boyfriend and I could go to the city and have some time together. So, we get ready and we're just about to walk out the front door when my son just starts freaking out. I look back and his little body is twisting and flailing and his arms are reaching towards me. I grabbed him and he stopped crying and snuggled right into me so I told him that mommy was going to be back soon so he had to be a good boy for papa, and I handed him back. He got his bottom lip pouted out and started crying again and arms stretched right out again. My heart sunk into my stomach and stayed there all afternoon - I was overjoyed to see how attached my son is to me, but so sad to see him upset that I was leaving. I love my son so much!
What are you thankful for these days?
What are your most recent "mommy moments"?
I am thankful that I have met so many wonderful people that have really helped propel me to a higher purpose. One which I would not recognize unless I was a single mother.
ReplyDeleteThat's good one! Thanks for sharing with me! :)
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